If you haven’t heard yet, I’m in the online video blog Forever…For Now. Its a view into the love life of my friend Shanti. And…I fit into that love life.

The recent episode “Jack’s Love Letter” is very raw. I’m very raw. I filmed most of this episode myself. You’ll see. What happens in it is very complex and what is captured is scary at times. I had to do it. It was hard.

Watch it. Now. More after the jump.

That was episode 9 of Forever…For Now. There is lot of things that happen that lead up to this. Go back and watch all the episodes before. They’re 10 minutes or less each. Its a roller coaster of a ride.

It is with great sadness that I say goodbye, at least for this lifetime, to my housemate, Eric. He passed away, suddenly, in a motorcycle accident on Tuesday 6 May 2008.

Eric and I were housemates and shared a bathroom for a year in my home in the East Village of New York City during 2007-2008. When I moved to the city back then, Eric became a friend that gave me hints and regularly had a warm smile when I came back with some fantastic story; joshing along with my tale.

I really enjoyed the difference in age between Eric and I; he was about ten years my younger. His approach to many things opened my eyes to other options. He was a good debater and a deep thinker. He worked through his ideas and opinions. We had fun all along the way and enjoyed good debates like Barack Obama vs. Hillary Rodham Clinton. Or the similarities and differences of hooking up between homosexuals and heterosexuals.

Eric was actively engaging in life and pushing forward. In addition to motorbiking, another of his passions was making documentaries. He had recently made a trip south to Central America to visit family and film footage for a documentary he was making. I’ll miss the excitement of seeing his first segment edited.

I do wish that he was still here with us; that I could have a conversation with him in person. But that will not happen. Eric has left this physical world. So for now, I say goodnight and I wish him well on his journey.

Hey, everyone. My friend, Shanti, has a video blog at http://foreverfornow.com that is about her New York City dating experiences and Season 2 just went live.

Its hilarious! And true. True in that funny yet really raw way. Go watch at least the last few episodes from Season 1 so you can get up to speed and then watch Season 2.

A new episode goes live every Monday. Do it Forever…For Now.

I remember now. Two weeks ago, a photographer was in Nowhere Bar. I’m talking with friends and then suddenly we’re posing for a shot. In the first, I was out of fame. Duh…I’m tall. So he asked me to scoot down. But rather than smartly bent my knees, I instead leaned my head down. Finally asked for spelling of my name to potentially be in HX magazine. HX is also known as Homo Xtra, the Totally Biased, Politically Incorrect Party Paper, the hottest guide to gay nightlife and culture in New York City.

So I look like The Hunchback of Nowhere Bar. Ugh.

But as Liz Smith told me, all press is good press.

I landed in Seattle Tuesday October 2nd for a brief trip to get a tattoo. My friend Maryam picked me up at the airport in her love-filled Beetle. She immediately jumped out of the car, we hugged, she tossed me the car keys, and dashed inside for the loo. So I circled the airport a few times and picked her back up. I drove into Seattle (I love driving) while we gabbed and called Kelly to join us for dinner. Kelly, my ex, was tired from an early day at work and passed. So, Maryam and I headed to go get some pizza at Maryam’s fav new pizza joint.

Its right next to Baltic Room on Pine St. We put in our order and walked over to see Jeff, the owner of the bar The Chapel. Maryam and I both know Jeff and all three of us had a good time sitting and catching up. Oops, we forgot the pizza and ran over. Its was GOOOD! Maryam dropped me off at Kelly’s who was still up. He was the fantastic host he always is and gave me the good bed. We chatted a bit but both of us were tired and we went to bed.

On Wednesday, I rented a pickup truck, did some errands, had my first of many cups of Vivace coffee (the best coffee in the world), and worked some more on my home. Its on the market to sell. Anyone want my amazing home in Madison Heights with 3 bedrooms, 3.5 baths, an urban grotto, high ceilings, big bedrooms, and next to a city park?

Then Wednesday night, I got together with most of my card playing friends to play games. I’ve missed them and the fun we have together since moving to NYC so I really appreciate it and value that time that we have together when I visit. We invited a few more people and decided to play A-Z rather than cards. In one corner, Kelle and Trinity were getting liquor questions and doing pretty well. In another corner, Brian and I got sports questions and just muttered. Brian and I know a whole lot about liquor and barely know the Chicago Bears are in Chicago. Trinity is a coach for multiple sports and Kelle was a tomboy. Luckily, Kelly didn’t get the literature and stage oriented questions because he has been an actor and writer for years. Somewhere along the way, Jessica said we shouldn’t razz the players. The heck with that I said. “He canna he canna he canna he cannot swiiing batta” and from then on it was heckling and lots of fun!

Yahoo! I got a picture just the other day from my friend, Kelle. She’s pregers with her…wait…wait…son Mason. In her words, “It was hard to get a good picture of the profile but the baby was not shy about letting us know that I am having a…BOY!”

Kelle is going to be a kick-ass mother. She’s caring, smart, driven, athletic, attractive, healthy, inquisitive; loves outdoors, dogs, traveling, and walks on the beach at sunset. Haha. I’ve known Kelle for about 8 years now and I know Mason is going to have a great mom!

You just watch. Mason will be the next pro football quarterback turned brain surgeon and part time model.

Starting today, I’m going to start taking my pictures in 16:9 widescreen format. I like the way it guides me to frame the shot and also provides more context of the surroundings. These I took on my way to the gym.

Later that night, I met my friend Peter for a cocktail party at his home. I was happy to also see Todd who flew in from Los Angeles. I know them both and they have become a long-distance couple with plans for Todd to move to New York City. I also met a few new friends at the party before we went out to Cielo.

Now, I knew ahead of time that Junior Vasquez was performing. I know his music style. And I know that I don’t like it. Vocal house w/ screeching divas, gay anthems, and the trancey-house sound that makes the gays go bump-bump in the night. But I wasn’t there for the music, instead for the friends and scene. For the scene, it was a good party and we all were having fun. I met The Legendary Father Chris, a longtime club denizen of New York since the 80s. He got me laughing more than once. Met a nice guy and woman out on the patio and spent some time lounging with them.

I went home probably 3am. I started out going the right direction, but found myself wandering in the West Village because of the architecture there and the look of the streets. So I became lost, but I didn’t care. Just kept wandering. Eventually, I hailed a cab and headed home.

Today, Kristen and I went to Trinity’s birthday party. She decided to go to a fun place with good wings. HOOTERS! So I grabbed my HOOTERS! shirt from Alabama and off we went.

I looooove Trinity and am going to miss being frequently around her smile and genuinely great soul. Her paramour, Meredith was there making me laugh and…of course…girls in tight shirts and shorts.

We decided to go to Re-Bar tonight. I have such good memories of Re-Bar over the years. Sunday night being a great way to end the weekend. West coast house music rules here. Brian Lyons is the main DJ and he was up for a visit from LA where he lives now. Wesley Holmes was also performing. I grabbed a few pics of Susan-Char, Trinity, Meredith, and Kelly.

Today, I met my friend Boris. Boris is a really creative guy that holds the punk ethos high, spins 90s house music, and rides a Ducati. Amazing. I had some of his vinyl for several months and it was good to catch up with him. We met at Vivaci, the best coffeehouse in North America, and it reminded me again that I won’t have Boris nor fantastic coffee like this as easy to get much longer.

Then I met Matt who will be managing my rental properties over the summer. We toured both of them and began exchanging knowledge about each. I also got to go on board his boat that is docked on Lake Washington. Its nice. Then I had yet another moment. It was raining and we could see the gray look it gave everything as I looked over Lake Washington towards Bellevue, the forests, and mountains. Not going to see anything like that in NY. Maybe Maine?

At night, I did blah stuff like filing receipts, balancing books, and upgrading Wordpress on this server.